ASDFGHJKL WHAT THE HELL, UNIVERSITY?!

~Sea of Twilight~

 Or rather, LAW SCHOO/COURSES, which is my minor to my Japanese Studies, WHY ARE YOU SO FREAKIN' OVERCROWDED WITH STUDENTS?! Because of that I have to stand up and get my train way too early to get a seat in the overcrowded auditorium. I need to go live on my own in that big city already, it might be hard but much more convenient TAT

Oh, and my parents...are SOOOO HELPFUL. Not that they find it bad I chose law school as minor, they like it, but they don't believe I can do it (neither do I but that's not the problem). They absolutely loath my decision to study Japanese Studies but damnit I know I like it and will pull through and I rather study something I have fun with than do something I will eternally hate but only do it because it might be good for money-making. It's just so freakish exhausting when they act all disappointed and sure of your doom and that it is hopeless and useless and ARGH. I am in their eyes forever a failed daughter and bad big sister to my younger ones. A lot of Asian parents are like that, sadly.

Oh, OHHH, but Japanese Studies is lots of fun. Sure, we are asking ourselves how long until we break down from too many Kanji and stuff, tehy all say we will ahve those moments occassionally, but at least I chose it on my free will! ...but maybe I'll change law school to arts and media if I get too overwhelmed TAT JAPANESE STUDIES however will forever remain my major!

So, I shoudl be able to read and write Hiragana-Katakana until next week but I am still stuck with Hiragana because...MAAA, NEMUI!!!!!!!!! Or something.

Oh and one epic thing we learned today in Grammar: Our professor will forever me reminded of baseball bats when someone says 'shine!' (die!), because when he started learning Japanese, he had to take care of the kids of his professor at some point...and they used 'shine!' a lot on each other. While holding baseball bats trying to bash in their heads. No, seriously. (I love our professor, he is is funny and easy-going *A*)

And...while working out the different versions of verbs, there is one version where the verb is used as attribute to a nomina...soemhow we wanted to use hito(human) but our professor at some point always wanted ushi(the cow)...and that also sounds a bit like a German name (Ushi) xDDDDDD The poor, poor cow~

...ah, well, gotta figure out the law school stuff and go to sleep so tomorrow I am not too tired for Japanese Cultural Studies...I think I'll like that 8D

Okay, enough rants and fawnings. OH WAIT, not yet. I FOUND AN AWESOEM FRIEND, she loves to cosplay, is UtaPri and some other otome game fan, shounen-ai-fan (well, I am not really but I am veeery tolerant with that kinda thing; or let's just say, I prefer shounen-ai-pairings in a series when the females of the series piss me off attitude-wise or damsel-in-distress-wise) and...WELL AN OTAKU LIKE ME 8D And she's pretty, that's always a nice bonus (I don't swing that way, but hey, it had to be mentioned xD). That and thanks to her I might cosplay someday as well...xD

*is shot for useless blog entries* 8)

Tears of The Polestar Header update~

~Sea of Twilight~

 Tears of the Polestar Vol.3 is released (I am searching for the download/waiting nakido-users to upload it xD) and that means Kazuaki gave honeybee another art piece of her for update~ It's interesting, I see Tsukiko in a pretty awesome dress crying on the far right. (And that big, alluring cleavage, and her long legs (fine, you don't see them, but officiall art give her nice long legs xD), I am so jealous, because it looks hot~) Can't wait for it to be uploaded somewhere. And soemday I'll buy them, because I wouldn't buy Drama CDs without understanding them. Games, yes, but not Drama CDs. Go figure.

Also, why can't I update my Xperia x8 Android 1.6 to Android 2.1?! It just doesn't work, damnit D: And lately I have been obsessed with Harvest Moon A Tale of Two Towns (Twin Towns, actually xD), so nothing on writing or drawing. And next week, Tuesday, my propaedeutics of Japanese Studies will start. Gosh, I am so excited~ ~3~

Okay, enough for the day. *salutes* I might update this post with a link to where I would get the CD, but remember, buying them if you can and have the means to~ This blogger was so kind and updated download links. Many thanks to her~ I am still waiting for Nakido downloads, though TAT Nakido Download Here~

And Celestie fails at drawing the essential stuff

~Sea of Twilight~

So, yesterday my chat-RP-friend Haru offered to draw one of my OCs with her, uhm, 'partner' from the RP we are playing (Aphorism; and the partner is Hinata, just as a side-note, which makes it my OC Chiharu *points to OC Shrine xD*), then it somehow turned into an art-trade and I sat there, trying to draw Tobari and Izuru (the potential partners for her OC in our RP)...and failed epically.
Also, the prompt was WEDDING. ...so I googled wedding dresses and tuxedos. I also failed spectacularly with the tuxedos, the dress is...meh.
I first sketched it on a paper. And left the hands vague on purpose because I also forever fail at hands. That's why, now that I inked it digitally teh hands are....interesting.

Oh. And I like the rose in Izuru's breast pocket xD I didn't have internet at my PC where I have my PT SAI and my graphic tablet, so I used my phone's WLAN to find some rose tutorial. Didn't reallyfind any, but luckily the tip I found was helpful enoughto make...a crappy rose, but I am pretty proud xDDD

...though I also fail epically at draing my friend's OC. It would look more like her (everyone would look more like them) if I colored it but like hell I will color it now, it hates me, Izuru hates me; ahhhhhhhhhhhhh TAT

But-but...I need to draw bishie males much, much more. Bishies and poses and hands. Bleeeeeeh, I can't draw the essential stuff. *sobs*

And my WIPs REALLY remain WIPs

~Sea of Twilight~

 Remember my other OC-coloring shot? Never finished that. Or the StaSky Bromance fanart I wanted to do? Never finished that, either. o_O Instead...SEE WHAT I STARTED 8D

I think I am better at soft-shading. Though that also leaves much to be desired, it doesn't frustrate em as much as cel-shading does currently. Urrrgh. I wish I had talent. People tell me I have talent but that ain't true. I copied and learned, then self-taught and learned, copied and learned...I have no talent. That's all learning through a slowl, long process. I am just slightly more artistic than some others but definitely not talented. I ain't talented in ANYTHING. I am good in some stuff (and worse at many others) but never talented. *sobs* I am a sad existence.

Err, okay, enough of wallowing in self-pity, I do that often enough already 8D See my mangled try of cel-shading. It's...the worst thing ever. After my many other bad attempts of coloring. Oh hell, I am so untalented...

At least...it didn't look bad until I began with the outer uniform jacket and the hair. Then it went downhill. D: Oh and yes, the uniform is my OC's personal version of Aphorism's summer uniform. Meaning the design technically isn't mine, only the modification to fit my OC's taste is mine. The rest belongs to Kujo Karuna 8D Maybe if someone shows me who to cel-shade and make it look good and if my try to do the same succeeds, I will redo this piece.

Oh well. I can't wait for university to start~

...and maybe I should switch to another image-hosting page, Photobucket always resizes my images and then they are so damn small D: Oh well. For now it shall suffice. The fact that my inspiration/motivation to draw and color hasn't totally diminished means my inspiration for writing will come back soon as well. I can see it already, both will return full-force when I will have no time whatsoever...xD

Confusion, lack of motivation and joy

~Sea of Twilight~

Confusion? Aaaall Mawaru Penguindrum's fault. I picked up that series. Yes. A while ago (in return I kinda dropped No.6 after the 6th episode or something) and damn, I am hooked, and confused. This series is a total mindscrew. I even started watching Utena to draw parallels, though I couldn't pbring myself to watch past episode 15 right now. In teh meanwhile MP is getting more and more confusing TAT

Oh. AND WHO THE FUCK IS THAT PINK HAIRED BISHIE DUDE?! I am getting some weird vibes from him. Fuuuu...


Lack of motivation. I haven't written anything lately (other than pieces on paper that are useless because I write that to free my clogged mind) and drawing...well, i did draw something but I am stuck on base-coloring. Hopefully, when I cel-shade, it won't take too long and won't eat away my tiny shred of motivation I have for that....


Joy. Yeah. Because I am playing Shikkoku no Sharnoth via English patch and it's a beautiful game, full stop~ The art is beautiful, the voice actors do a great job, the minigame is intense, the music is beautiful, the narration pretty awesome, even if it's sometimes rather repetitive, but that's probably just another means of the game~

I just fail at the minigame, especially at the second stage of each chapter. I think I won't get anymore concept arts as bonus for a while...D: So what, I fail at minigames in general... and it's hard to lure the small fry-monsters into traps when the big bad guy is following you around, and if he catches up with you, you get an instant game over and you only have a certain amount of movements you can do D:


Another thing...you know, it's funny. I was at a tribute celebration of several archievements of sports and political groups around my area and my little sister was part of a rather successful chess team (female) and got invited to get a medal and stuff, I came along and was super-bored. So at first I wrote stuff. Then I drew stuff (with a ballpoint pen and when I dawa with a ballpoint pen, it usually looks crappy) and a girl sitting in front of me was so damn fascinated by it...and another girl noticed it as well. Both girls were part of my sister's chess team...xD And one of the girls, the second one and the one who's only a year younger than me and I, we started talking soooo much afterwards. I found a new friend 8D ...the funny thing is, in teh same fashion I got my best friend's attention when she first came into my class. 8D

Okay, end random post. xD I should focus on filling in more papers for university stuff xD

Currently searching for her motivation...

~Sea of Twilight~

I might have some form of writer's block. And no motivation to draw and color. It's ooodd, whenever I sit at the computer in my room, trying to write or to draw I feel restless and don't feel any motivation/inspiration/muse. MUSE, WHERE ARE YOU?! I have still a Natsume Yuujinchou story to finish, and my Starry Sky RI is still being written, my Fire Emblem RI could be continued, too, my Starry Sky fanarts and my OC profile images....*fails*

Oh, but Corpse Party will be translated into English. That made my day. And probably my resolve to buy a PSP once I have a job this year.

University; one step closer~

~Sea of Twilight~

...or something. WELL, ANYWAY, today I was at the university...just to get my Student ID, not because university started. But, hey, now I can prove I am a university student xD Ad maybe also get a job already, the big cities do offer a lot, and now with the student ID I dun have to pay for tickets anymore. WHAT A BIG RELIEF *A*

So, yeah, one more month to laze around...or actually earn money until university starts. Can you tell I am excited? I can't wait until I can form some Japanese phrases and surprise my Japanese host families in a message or something 8D Or our Japanese interpreter Tomo. I miss them all SO GODDAMN MUCH TAT.

...oh yes, random post is random 8D